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anxiety, Depression, emplyment, job, life, overwhelmed, struggles, Unemployment, Work
Today I quit my job. I got to work early this morning and finished up some stuff that I was working on. I made sure that everything was squared away and they would not have any issues. Unusually Suzy is the first person there but the first person there was my boss, George. I paced back and forth in front of his office debating whether or not I should really do this. Then I got a text from my sister that said “Good luck today! You’re making the right decision.” Hesitantly I took it as a sign that I needed to do this and with my heart beating of my chest I walking in to his office. I literally thought I was going to die; I was so anxious. I said” George, do you have a minute?” He nodded. Then I said “I wanted to give you resignation and my two weeks’ notice as a professional curtesy but I know that I have only been here a short time and I’m no longer doing medical records, so I understand if you want me to leave immediately.” After a very brief pause he said “please leave.” I gave him my resignation and my office key. I left. It kind of hurt my feelings that he did not say anything but to be fair what did I expect him to say. I have been agonizing over this for days and I finally at peace.
Quitting my job was awful. I did not want to quit. I spent all weekend weighting the pros and the cons. should I stay or should I go? I laid out all of my issues with my job in my previous blog post. It was just a bad situation.
I hate that I’m unemployed again. (I do still have my part time inventory job.) I feel like a loser. I just bounce from job to job and I hate it. I want a long term job. I hate that I am like this; I try so hard. I feel bad that even though this is awful for me it also hurts the people around me like my mom. My mom is so supportive and I hate that I’m letting her down. I wish I could be normal.
Inside My Unhinged Mind 
Wow. Sounds like you and I could be twins. I quit my job today too. For many different reasons but I also feel like I just keep jumping from job to job and its true. But the reason I keep doing this is because I’m looking for MY career job. And when I find it I will stay but until then I just keep jumping. Jus tdont stop looking and don’t stop working. Keep it going. You’ll stop one day. Best of luck!
That place was 100 percent toxic. The smartest thing you could have done was quit. I’ve worked places like that; they have constant staff turnover, and new people don’t stand a chance. Staying there would have been a serious, serious mistake. Places like that, you can’t ever succeed, can’t ever get things right, can’t ever “win.” It’s permanently set up for you to fail. Places like that damage your confidence, your sense of self worth, and your soul. Good for you for realizing it was a bad situation and getting yourself out of there as quickly as you did.
Your boss didn’t handle that very well. That’s unfortunate, hope the next gig you find is longer term!